My Life: As Jess

After everything that’s been said and done, I must inform everyone that my last text post i was talking about a boy. Well that’s done. I realized after more fuck ups and more let downs that it wasn’t worth it. We both came to a conclusion in April that it would be better for me to get over him because basically he was using me for his own sexual desires. I wasn’t going to be that person any longer. It was hard i wont lie, i really thought i liked him a lot. He turned out to be an ass in the end. Just like everyone else I’ve dated in the past. I don’t have a target on guys though because of that, and im not saying they all are going to be assholes, I’m just saying i have had the indecency of always falling for the assholes and jerks. At least until now. Now on to the good news! Since June 30th, 2010, I have had a boyfriend. He is and i mean IS the perfect guy i could ask for. We just get each other, i don’t know how to explain it. I’m this shy girl around people, but with him, who i knew i was being hooked up with, there was not any part of me that was shy. We hit it off right at the start. If i knew such a great thing would blossom from that, damn. I haven’t been this happy in awhile with a guy. I wish i could put in words to explain the depth of these feelings im feeling, especially for him. So after saying all that, let me explain how we met. I went on vacation with my best friend to Virginia for about 10 days. Our intent was to go to Alexandria, VA, take a train to North Carolina, where her boyfriend is and also my boyfriend is. After that we were going too drive up to Virginia Beach where our destination was, after that wed fly back home. So that was our vacation. It was amazing to actually go on a trip with my best friend, it was our first trip together alone and to say the least it was fucking amazing. We went all over the place, and she wasn’t that big of a fan of zoo’s but i took her to the smithsonian zoo in DC and she fell in love. After we were done with all that and on our way to North Carolina, I was hella nervous. During the few days we were in VA, my friends boyfriend texted her and was like I think Jess would really like this guy Knox, hes one of my friends So of course me i forced the issue, and went after it. He was supposed to go to VA Beach with us, but he wasn’t sure if he was going to or go home to see his mom. So when we arrived in NC that night we were all going to go on a double date. That was one of the best nights of my life. Like i said we hit it off right to start, it was amazing. We all went to dinner and than went home, and lounged outside for awhile. When it was bed time Rusty and I went to sleep on 2 of the spare blow up beds, my friend and her bf Jake went to bed in the spare bedroom. They had to leave at 5:30 in the morning. I forgot to mention that they are both Marines. So that’s why they are both in NC. On base in Cherry Point, and why that both had to leave so early. So that day Afton, the girls house we were out, also a long time friend, Nabilah (best friend), Jake’s parents, and I all went to the beach for the day. That was amazing, I haven’t been to the beach in ages and i was loving the ocean. So later that night nabilah got another text from Jake asking if I like Knox and if i wanted to see him again tonight. All day that’s pretty much what i was thinking about how i wanted to see him again. So that night they came over again, this is when things started happening. Rusty and I were in the spare bedroom for a lot of the evening, just chilling and talking, also playing with the cat - who’s a big weirdo. This lead to cuddling/wrestling. Damn that boy is strong as fuck. His massive marine muscles are like impossible to get away from. I tried so hard to get away, but he wouldn’t have it. It was so cute and fun, so that happened for awhile until it was time for bed for everyone so He and I ended up sharing one of the blow up beds. At first when I laid down and he laid down next to me for a second I freaked, but than i was like pshh. So that night I couldn’t sleep I was restless, thinking and thinking. I kept him up and i felt bad because he had to be up at 5:30 again. Things ended up happening, as in we kissed and made out and cuddled a lot. I was really happy [: So that was the start of it. That night we left for the Beach, he was driving but since i kept him up he needed to nap, Nabilah and Jake and Rusty and I all switched spots, rusty took a nap on me for awhile. It was adorable. [: So when we got to the beach we were going to meet up with the Berlin kids who were coming down, we were already with three other marines from base. They went off to go drink when we got to the Beach. That night was hectic, Rusty and I went off on our own after awhile because everyone else was doing their own shit. We ended up on the boardwalk, on a beach, tired, and snuggling. We were there for god knows how long, maybe 3-4 hours? It was well worth it though. We had time to get to know each other more. Since we didn’t have anywhere to go we had to sleep in his car, and sadly those three marines, well shit happened where 2 out of the 3 or all 3 ended up getting arrested. Oh Marines. So they had to sleep in the other car, all three of their drunk asses. The next day we were off to the beach house! When we arrived the first thing i wanted to do was SHOWER! Damn i didn’t shower in like a day. gross. So rusty and I got our room, we snuggled, than I made him shower, I showered after. We snuggled in bed again. That’s pretty much where we were all evening again. Things were heating up at some point, which lead to some things happening. Which I must say was very pleasant. haha After that we pretty much looked like we did stuff and smelled like it too. But who cares. So we went out to eat, and this is when the fun started. I got drunk off my ass. Rusty wanted to show me a jager bomb, well i sure as hell took that jager home, straight up. First time being drunk and i don’t even remember half of it. I know i was a joke, I know i was loud, and i know that rusty took care of me. we weren’t even dating, didn’t even know each other for that long, but he took care of me. Cleaned up after i puked, held my hair back when i was at the toilet, and took of my clothes and put me in the shower. That right there, he’s by far a keeper. I’m still amazed he did all that for some girl he just met. His reasoning is that he had such a good weekend he wasn’t going to let one night ruin it. Sadly the next day Nabilah and I had to leave to go home. I was still drunk when i woke up, lovely, but i never was hungover, Yes! This is the day we started dating. I was so very happy [: I was really sad to leave though, i didn’t want to leave him! I’m glad that he wanted to keep me and not let me go though. That was amazing. I had an amazing weekend with him, and I’m glad it worked out the way it did. Because now I have the most amazing boyfriend, I love him more than I could ever explain in words. Since then I have seen him once, for the 4th of July. That was the best weekend of my life. Spending it with him, getting to know him better, and getting to meet all his family. That weekend completely made me fall for him. I know its early, and I know its like wow you feel fast, but I just know, I just know that he is the one. I cant explain the feeling, or my reasoning, but I know. We are both out for the same goals in life, we both want the same things from each other, and we both will do whatever it makes to work. I’m so very happy, and I’m determined to make it work with this boy, he means the world to me now. In the end I think this will be a happy ending. With all the sad, and hard parts included. Dating a Marine is hard. He leaves for Afghanistan in March, he has to spend a year in three different countries while only getting a month home in that year. The next three years are going to be hard, but like I said, I’m more than determined to make this work. I know it will!

Much Love <3

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